this is like an unexpected post. so yeah, bear with me.

problem number one.
hockey is really driving me nuts. ): my form is poor, im weak physically and mentally and i have lost all passion to seriously play. omggg what is wrong with me. so like now im in a new school which doesnt offer hockey as a cca. im so tempted to make a switch la. but at the same time, i cant bear to do so cos hockey was like my life for the past dunno 4 years or so ?

i hate to make decisions.

problem number two.
should i play for national team ? hmmm, this is damn tricky. actually, point is i dont mind. but there is always a BUT. i seriously cannot commit la. do i look like i can commit myself to go down for trngs ? look, i dont even go for club trngs la. thats why im like a piece of shit now. plus the passion is gone. so how ?

))))))))))))):

eew, i hate this feelingggg. WO BU XI HUAN LA FUCKER BANANA FACE. $%#$(#$%(^#)#${

bb. ): im so sadddddd. ): hurry hurry wake up now. DDDD:

passion's gone, GAME OVER. ):

i dont want to regret after making a decision. but i have to think about my future. aiyah fuck this shit laaaa. fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckyouyouyouyouyou. )))):

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